Human beings. Such a promising, heartbreaking species--so much potential, and yet, so much shittiness! Annoying one minute, delightful the next. Relationships on an individual level just reveal the larger truth--opening your soul fully and getting betrayed when you least expect it. Admiring a person of great ideals who turns out to have slovenly personal relationships (my dad says a lot of hippie movers-and-shakers were sadly, of this stripe, like so many Committed to Great Ideas People)... Or, hey, better yet! How about having a parent who's a molester? I think that combines the whole, loving/hurtful paradox efficiently.
But--no, knowing truly good people is the worst. You grow a false optimism. You get fooled into thinking the heartbreak can be delayed indefinitely. That maybe there's hope.
I've thought it over long and hard--considered this thing, people, as individuals and as a collective, for years on end--and I hate it, but, I've come to a decision. It's not going to work out. There's a lot of potential and we've come really far. Not so much enslaving and genociding and such. But in the end we destroy everything and hurt everyone. Not everywhere, all the time, but... it's enough.
It's time to call the bluff. There's no use pretending this is somehow going to turn out well. Trying leaves you crying. Hoping gets you a bashed-in heart.
So.
It's time to start all over, make a new beginning.
I'm hoping there's a mothership, and I'm hoping it comes for us soon.
Otherwise...
Kool Aid, anyone?
Knowing the back story to this post was a relief... I was sure the world was ending or something.
ReplyDeleteIs it wrong that I'm really drawn to this painting? It's very simple but I really like it. Might be a litle depressing to hang over the couch, but maybe in the bathroom?
Don't give up hope, yes some people can be really blaah, but dismiss those types, only associate with good folks.
ReplyDeleteDon't let anything drag you down. And plz don't drink the cool aid, have an apple juice. :D